12:02
It’s taken me a really long
time to come to terms with the
fact that
the gender of my
anger is still
anyone’s best guess
For example
There’s the lemon candy I got at
Safeway that I was fully expecting
to be sweet, but then turned out
not to be sweet at all
The three people
ahead of me in line
who, one after the
other, all shouted
Art in the Age of the Metaverse!
The text I got
from Elaine of a
photo she
took of my ex-boyfriend
buying a twelve pack of
BOUNTY
This body is my lake
Was the only response I
could come up with
Sometimes I think my problem
The reason why I have so little
understanding of my
SELF
is that I text too much
I really should give it up
Just like people give up Jesus or soda
or game shows
I have never seen this sort of sex
part before. Could you please tell me
what this is, and exactly how it works?
What are you saying? You want
me to push here??
I mean, just the other day
true story
I stood right here in
this very bathroom
directly under this very
fluorescent light
and promised myself that I
was going to stop texting
And masturbating so much
And always writing about my cunt
And telling everyone I know that I
remember exactly what my mother and
father looked like naked
Like, I really should just clean
up my act, right?
Be more like Mary
Oliver or one of
those, I
mean, look at how many books
she sold and
even though I’ve
never read any of her stuff, but
I’m pretty sure there’s not
a single clitoris
anywhere
And then the right
I need to stop bleaching my hair!
I need to renew my subscription to the New York
Review of Books!
I need to finally make that trip to Istanbul!
Then the light started
to flicker and I got really scared
Had this panicked idea that
something
really ugly was about to come
up out of the drain
So I quickly put the
phone back in my pocket
Washed my hands
with hot
water and soap
Got into bed
Lodged the phone securely under
my left ear
and went back to sleep